One is hard when you have one, two is hard when you have two...

I have five kids and people ALWAYS comment when they see us. "I don't know how you do it." "You must be supermom." "I thought (insert number here) was hard." The reality is parenting is hard and there is no easy number of kids.

Yes, it is easier to run errands with my 5 and 6 year olds who can get themselves in and out of the car than with the 5 month old and 2 year old BUT my 5 and 6 year olds have learned the fine art of taunting. So instead of being physically exhausted from hauling the two "littles" around I'm being overwhelmed by their teasing, whining and "MOOOOOOOOOOOOM - he/she said XXXX." Which leads to me completely forgetting why I am running errands in the first place!

So I had to learn to let go. OK, OK I have heard it from many. I'm too uptight. I need things a certain way. I did too...once upon a time.

The day everything changed was when I learned to accept fully where I am in my life. I can't hold on to my goals and desires of the past as if I have failed to do them instead I had to realize that I have so much time ahead of me. I can fulfill old dreams or come up with new ones when the time is right. I don't have to do it all now. And I don't have to do any of it. It could all be different tomorrow. Today I get to stay home with my kids.